Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Hoping and Praying

Well I have a confession.....not many people read this blog, that I know of anyway so it's not a confession for the world but I want to let the close people around me know what is going on. Some may already know others may not. Stephen and I have been trying to have a baby since last November. I never thought we would have a problem since in 2003 we got pg the first month we tried (I miscarried) then with Ella we again got pg right away. It never crossed my mind that we would not get pg fast again. Each month I hope and pray that it is the month and each month I am disappointed. Well being 37, I don't have a lot of time to waste so I have been to the Dr and they are currently running tests and labs. I started Clomid today and will take it for 5 days to stimulate ovulation. If it does not work within 3 months we will look at other options. And those other options may or may not be an actual option for us as it can cost thousands of dollars, dollars that we don't have. I want a sibling for Ella and she is almost 3 and I don't want her to be so far apart from her sister or brother. I know it's all in God's hands and He is teaching me and Stephen lessons on faith and patience......but it is hard. We arem thankful for Ella and blessed to have her. If we are not given another child to raise we will be ok......but I am going to keep trying, hoping and praying!!


Sunday, June 17, 2007


I am so very blessed to have a Father that I love so much and he loves me. Growing up he was always so much fun and made me laugh......he still does. I have such a high respect for my Dad and my Mom....they worked together to raise my brother and I. They did an amazing job, and they still do. They have an amazing marriage, it is complete love and respect for one another. You don't see that much anymore. I have to say now that I am grown and have my own family, I understand more the sacrifices they made but see the reward as well. Do they have as much as I would like for them to have, no, but they have each other, they have pretty decent children (if I do say so myself) and they have a grandchild that they adore beyond words and she adores them just the same. If I could, I would love to send them to the beach for the whole summer and it be my treat for a change.....and then I would send them out west. Just back and forth as much as they wanted. I would have Dad's music sung all over the country and world.....I would like to do so many other things for them to say just how much I love and appreciate them. Alas, I can't, for I have limited means. I guess I just have to settle for telling them that I love them. When it comes down to it that is the greatest reward anyway, to love and be loved unconditionally!

I love you both......Holly

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Pink Princess Room

We FINALLY painted Ella's room. We painted it light pink on top and dark pink and green striped on the bottom part of the room. She loves it and told me that it was a princess room. I am glad that it is done and glad that we did it when she was old enough to notice and be excited about it. Everything else is going well at home and work.